FULL FORCE

Saturday, February 28, 2009

i finish mugging all the 9 units of the TCC module today, but i guess nothing got into my head.

it was merely studying to occupy my wandering mind.

why should i even blog these.. its just the same moldy story all over again.

Since you never get my point, why should i even voice out?

and during the times i do, everything go wrong.

So how should i say how I'm actually feeling?

you don't listen to her, you don't care how it hurts.

how you never feel you're wrong.

i say I've sacrificed my friends

you say you've sacrificed all your friends.

was it me that kept your friends away or is it your work?

did we change or are we just in that 3rd stage of every normal relationship?

where the only thing we ever do is ask ourselves if its the right person.

seriously, ask yourself, do you still feel anything?

liars go to hell, even if you're lying to yourself.

if i were a boy, even just for a day

i think i could understand

how it feels to love a girl

i swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her

'Cause I know how it hurts

When you lose the one you wanted

'Cause he's taking you for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

I'd put myself first

And make the rules as I go

'Cause I know that she'd be faithful

Waiting for me to come home, to come home

But you're just a boy

You don't understand

And you don't understand, oh

How it feels to love a girl

Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her

You don't care how it hurts

Until you lose the one you wanted

'Cause you're taking her for granted

And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

john Ryan ting- if you ever see this, you made me cry again. for the umpteen time.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

WOW is all i could say.

WOW WOW AND ANOTHER WOW.
Is the sun coming out from the other side of the earth or what.
Like so random WHAT LA.
hahaha..
Classic look. Classic face. Classic day.
HAHA.
Classic events. Classic.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Gosh.

ut HAHA. ROCKER'S Blogging. In case some donno who wrote which post.
I know i've been acting a lil abnormally these days.
Not because I'm krayzie or what.
I'm just destressing I guess.
I donno.
Just feel like doing so from inside.
Donno what's wrong w me too. hahaha..
So sorry that you pipol had to bear w me a lil. =)
Omg. Suddenly got a urge to wanna write beautiful words/phrases for e rest of my posting. HAHA.
OHOH. Nearly forgot. VPL; Visible Panty Line. LOL.!

PS : CYNTHIA V FIERCE TODAY AT E BASIN THERE. I SCARE SCARED.! ):

Sunday, February 22, 2009

SILENT SCREAM.

INITIATIVE Definition : readiness and ability in initiating action; enterprise.

Okay. Final One Last Assignment.
I only want to get better grades for all modules.
I cant be bothered w stuff or pipol that will bring my group's grade down.
Sick & tired of it.
We all have our own eyes to see. We never say or show it doesnt mean we dont mind. And dont fcuking give me irrelevant stuff & that fcuking face. WE DONT NEED IT. Thank You.

By hook or by crook, I will do anything to score e best.
And I MEAN IT. You pipol know me.
Chances had been given more than thrice & EVEN MORE.
Cant be bothered w it only right. Fine. Suit yourselves.

You're e ones that gonna stay at e bottomline while e rest will rise & score.

And it doesnt matter whether one or two is gone, it makes no difference to us.
We're not gonna waste our time anymore.

We will survive & We Did.

And to some; Stop your fcuking goo-goo-gaa-gaa over boys.! And get your bloody goddamn minds on more important stuff you noob.!

PS : If you feel self-concious, man I'm talkin' 'bout you

To e ones whom had been worrying bout this group. Dont worry too much. Just give our bestshot on this. Though I know what you've been thinking all these while. :]

Enough is enough. We dont own you.
If you dont like my post I'm sorry but to say TOO BAD. THAT'S E WAY I ROLL.
And, You can jolly well click the top right red lil cross to end it. (:

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Voice within.

OMG.
stress leads to sickness.?
hahaha..
pathetic us. or rather me. or ech people.
all too busy w projects that makes us down one by one.?

hey pipol.
do i appear as Extreme Emo to you.?
i'm puzzled.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Cont'd. 17 February 2oo9.

After fliming, we burn the CD and some went home while Farina & me went to check out on Cynthia & Rebecca's group.

STOP.!

Irah & Cynthia.

Posing. LOL.

Breaktime.

HAHA.!

AHA.! Caught ya.!

Am I a cute babi.? Haha.!

Haiyoh. The Storytelling..

A random shooting while fliming.

My group.

Farina acting cute.

Farina again.

During fliming.

Fliming in progress.

The Wolf mask. HAHA.!

Done the storytelling fliming today; 17February2009. What a day.!

Some been sitting round doing nothing while e others are busy w the flow of the drama in e hot sun.

The Pictures.!

Some Mix photos in here. ;D

Rebecca ft. ayU.

ayU. *cheese*

Flamingo.

Cynthia Ft. Rebecca.

Rebecca ft. ayU.

Dua Pui Ter.

The Penguins.

IVIES ft. Pinky.

Pinky.

The stuff that birds use to build nest.

Kinda cool uh. hahaha..

A bower a nest to impress female birds.

Birds are creative too.!

The different types of nest behind.

A flamingo's nest.

The eggs.

A bird that only expect 1 gigantic egg.

Can spot the smallest egg.? Haha.!

Eggs.

Should be chicks but donno why become ducks.

WHOO ~ the red egg.!
[ featuring Becca's hands. ]

I'm kissing the ostrich's egg.! OMG.!

Different size of beaks.

Victoria Crowned Pigeon. My fav.

The different birds' feathers.

The smallest bird in e world. Introducing the HummingBird.!
But it looks like stickman to me. HAHA.!

END OF JBP PICTURES.

Random pictures now.

LOOK.! I've got a big seductive lips.!

Left to Right.

Cynthia's.

ayU's.

Rebecca's.

Cassandra's.

Ivies's.

the aftermath

You forgot to add in the highlight of the trip! how could you?!

The breasts remember?

oh well.. it's good riddance to bad rubbish :D

Anyways, we slayed one assignment today, that leaves us with one more to go till exams.

WAY TO GO gang!

What's left in ICN next year will the the cream of the crop :)

I don't think stress has been nice to us at all, but i really wanna thank the guys that were there for me... FULLFORCE!

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Friday, February 13, 2009

JBP Day.

YOHOO ~ its me. AGAIN.

Okay. Today is our day for excursion to the JBP.
In case some noobs dont know. Its the Jurong BirdPark.

I was late today. So i went in class around 8:15am. Consider on time not counted as late.
Discovered that there was a Ferrero Rocher on my desk. hahaha.. pretty surprised by it.
Then CASS told me it was from CYNTHIA for Valentine's Day. hahaha.
Say thankQs to her and get back to work.

After Ms.Pearl lesson ended, went over to the next class for Mr.Eric PR.
hahaha.. today chapter was pretty interesting for me & the rest of the class i believe.
Cause we've got some real life examples.? HAHA.!

Then as usual, we would sidetrack from the main topic. But today can say is sidetrack for a v long time.. hahaha..
After which lesson ended. And we went out of school for lunch.
Came back to school around 12:50pm to assemble at the foyer waiting for the bus to come.

Bus came and we boarded it. Some slept during the journey while i camwhore a lil.
Reach JBP after quite some time. Waited for the stickers thingy at the ticket entrance.
The person in-charge, May & Maggie the others i cant remember their names, brought us to this " classroom " for some ppt. After ppt, we're all being seperate into 3 different groups for easy teaching & touring. So we first started w this egg & vinegar experiment. I shall not go into details as I'm quite sleepy when typing this out. =p

After that we went to see the biggest bird called the Elephant Bird Vs. The Smallest Bird; Humming Bird. [ I think ] Then we went to different windows for different exhibitions.
We went to this Different feathers, then this parrot called Bibi.?, then the legs of different birds, then the from the smallest egg to the biggest eggs; the biggest is produce by the extinct bird Elephant Bird so the one they exhibit is a man-made egg, then the egg hatching, then we went to this different nests, then the stepping on ostrich egg & lastly is the inside/organs of the birds.
After that we had some refreshment. hahaha.. They served my favourite Cream Puff. hahaha.. Of course i never eat alot la. If not how to lose weight.
Then we went to the penguins.! They bring in this penguin called Pinky. And we get to stroke it and feel its feathers. Its so smooth la. hahaha.. and she's super cute man.! The head will tilt a side when she just saw us. hahaha..

After that is free time. We went around to see the flamingo, the talking birds. But when we try to make it talk, it doesnt talk. So never mind. After that is HOME SWEE HOME. :]

PS: pictures shall be upload next time.! stay tune.! ;D

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Spotlight.

Are you a man who loves and cherishes and cares for me?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?
Are you a guard in a prison, maximum security?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?
Do we stay home all the time 'cause you want me to yourself?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?
Or am I locked away, out of fear that I'd find someone else
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?

[Chorus]
Well, I don't like living under your spotlight
Just because you think I might find somebody worthy
Well, I don't like living under your spotlight
Maybe if you treat me right, you won't have to worry

Is this a relationship, fulfilling your needs as well as mine
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?
Or is it just my sentence, am I doing time?
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?
If this is love, real, real love, then I'm staying no doubt
But if I'm just love's prisoner, then I'm busting out
Is that true? Is that true? Is that true?

[Chorus]
Oh, you oughta be ashamed of yourself
What the hell do you think you're doing?
Loving me, loving me, so wrong
Baby, all I do is try
To show you that you're my one and only guy
No matter who may come along
Open your eyes cuz baby I don't lie

[Chorus x2]

Monday, February 9, 2009

Wolf

the girl who cried wolf..nobody believe her anymore...just like the gambling ad xiang xin wo zhe shi zui hui yi ci..who would believe a gambler...cant blame anyone..i choose to be the gambler...guess i have to work extra hard...i cant say i will...i cant say i can...nobody will believe...i only can say..i don't know..don't ask me...u guys have really helped me alot...and now i can only help myself

LaLaLand and Missykilo

LaLa
-aunt's stress
-scandra's stress
-parent's stress
-brother's stree
-Missy's stress
-and alot more..

he said he's stress...and i actually can tell him what he's stressing about..he texted me.'.and somemore'

Does he know mine?

Missykilo
-almost dumped school
-mum's stress
-LaLa's stress

i've actually wanted to dump school and goto work like what my mum said..cos im not in sch most of the time...but i felt..it's just not worth it..i don't want to do things halfway like last time anymore..money can wait...really MONEY CAN WAIT

What Missykilo did

Flunked o levels 06

took up part time course.@ chec..realized no money to pay..went to work..Flunked again 07

ech mia and thinks that she could pull through..08

i don't know .dont ask me 09

To myself and ff : sorry i never do what i said.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

EXIT

yes IVY, the world doesn't revolve round one pathetic person. life goes on, but irritation might just turn to hatred.

So if you find that you're acting a lil' too pathetic, please stop (:

i'm not begging for anything else, i'm just wishing that my eyes won't have to hurt everyday i go to school.

No doubt, there's a conscience to feel pity in everyone of us.

BUT don't play on it, it's not working anymore, at least not with rebecca lee.

give me a break from that face, it's not like i massacred your entire family.

I know i' not really in your position nor am i in a position to comment, but i'm getting sick of the 'just-slap-my-freaking-face' look.

if you dont know who i'm talking about, it probably is you (:

duh'

Question Mark.

What did i do wrong.
You can tell me.
Why do i feel like i'm the one that keeps holding on.
I'm sad.

3 meanings in 1 post.

Heyhey.
I can only say life's really liddat.
Same rice being fed BUT produce different kinds of people.
Hypocrites & backstabbers are the worst of the worst.
Act so friendly & kind in front but in e back sucks like hell. & i mean HELL.
Super fake la. FAKERS.
You think you're v clever and your plot is perfectly laid w/o realising that we're actually laughing at your naive thinking & all e efforts that you've done in acting & other areas trying to put us down. HAHA.
DUMBASS.
We know what your thinking up in your minds. We can see it.
So continue acting if you want.

Okay. Now about me.
Finally 1 assignment down. Phew ~
Didnt really get any sleep cause of that.
But luckily there's this Magic workshop which can perks me up for awhile at least.
The workshop's pretty fun & interesting. But there's this particular rope trick which makes me like HUH.? HEY I'M LOST. haha. Funny but fun overall.
Got free entertainment throughout not only from the whole workshop but other things. Rebecca & ayU should know. *eyebrows ups & downs*
HAHA.!

Oh yah. Had steamboat w my secondary gang of friends yesterday night.
Talk alot of shitcraps while reminisce our past working days together. Haha.
After that they play mahjong & pokercards. I didnt play of course.
Cause i'm demure plus good girl mah. So i watched them played while watching MTV.
Hahaha.. after which i left to catch the last train but who knows when i walked till the MRT, the board shows LAST TRAIN SERVICE ENDED. And I was like WTF. So went to cab home.
Finally Home SWEE Home. Do the necessary things then talk w my mommy until I slept.

Things been happening lately.
Ups & downs bound to happen to anyone.
And everyone only got ONE chance to live.
So why not just be open & magnimous to forget about everything & try live it to the fullest.
Rather than being so narrow making life & things difficult for ownself & the others who cares about you.
And remember suffering wouldnt occurs to one person. It'll surely affect others too. Because they cared about you. Thats why.
The world doesnt revolve around one person only. It'll still move no matter what happens.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

chaos amidst chaos

Amidst the chaos at school and in work, someone's been suffering subtly.

Someone's decided that enough is enough.

Someone felt that someone else went too far and that the nagging should stop.

Someone almost let out her violent streak.

Someone couldn't stop to think what she was saying anymore- that someone was programmed to be blunt.

I felt like a maligned defendant. My chances of winning?

Zero.

Because seniority was everything.

And then i blurted out.

I had won, but at a cost.

There was something i knew i'd lost.

Mothers are the bane of my life

mothers of every size

they never fail to criticize

The world thinks that mothers are the best

yet i say that the world knows less.

what a woe

people seldom know

they need to see the story as a whole.

i'm sorry but i hate mothers.